Beautiful One

My soul, my soul must sing...

Tonight was the final night of Sunago. Man, I'm going to miss it.

As I reflect on this semester, growing thru Sunago, growing as a musician, as a leader, as a daughter, there's no denying the hand prints of God. Where would I be without the counsel, encouragement and the breath of God in my life?

Tracy asked us hard questions tonight...but it wasn't so much the questions that was hard to deal with, it was the idea that God has a destiny for us all...

"I have something bigger planned for you...you are not alone"

As I tried to digest those words, I couldn't help fighting tears...I don't know why I keep fighting God's pursuit of my heart. It's in these moments where I feel the biggest because God actually cares for me, is when I feel the smallest, because God cares for me.

I still can't wrap my mind around His love...that He chose us...that He chose me...I am constantly brought to humility...not only humility but a feeling of uselessness and unworthiness...and yet...and yet...God has chosen me...I don't know how to put that into words...

I don't know how to explain this weird tension in my heart, my mind...my breath...

I wake up in the morning and all I can think about is the beauty around me and how God is pursuing me through what I see, what I don't see...and my heart beats so fast in excitement of a new day and at the same time, I am at peace...a calm anticipation...I feel like I want to furiously paint a masterpiece or play a beautiful melody that pierces through hearts...I feel like I want to jump off that 40ft waterfall and dive deep into that lake...

God, you are such an inspiration...

I can only fall down on my knees and cry out, Yahweh, Yahweh...and look up in awe, in the face of love...

Oh Lord, how you rush over my heart like a wave...I'm so intoxicated by You...